So, today's my 40th birthday...

Turning 40 feels heavier than I expected. There’s a strange mix of loss, uncertainty, and quiet hope sitting with me today. I’m not sure which direction my life is supposed to take now, but I do feel this small, steady pull to start over... To rebuild something honest, something new, with God’s help guiding me through whatever comes next.

That’s why “Scott Street” by Phoebe Bridgers is my pick for today. It carries that feeling of walking through familiar places after everything has changed: still hurting, still unsure, but aware that life can shift again. There’s a softness in it that matches where I am right now: looking back, letting go, and trying to believe that the next version of my life can be good.

Thank you, God, for these first 40 years on Earth.